Wednesday, August 27, 2008

For My Delight


Yesha is so big now and she knows how to smile na :) Aint it a delight lookin at a kiddo?






Licensed Baby :)

not everyone knows what ive been through for the past months. only my family, closest friends and PAULINIAN friends. i was ready to give up everything for my lola's life. yes, for me it was a matter of life and death. because it really is. and i completely let go of the future, and i stayed beside my lola when i am supposed to be reviewing for my board exams.

it was really depressing. i already lost hope. i didnt even want to think of passing. i was in a complete struggle. i didnt even think i am ready to take the NLE because in all aspects of my life - emotionally, spiritually, physically, intellectually - i am NOT me. i am not healthy. there were moments that i want to go to the dorm to join my classmates but it breaks my heart everytime i think about my Lola in her recovery. she needs me most. and she was there for me as in everytime, all 20 years of my life. this is the time when a granddaughter is supposed to take care of her lola, and i am sticking to her side, whatever the consequences are.

but GOD is sooo sooo good. He's the greatest! He has planned something for me. And in the blueprint of my life, He really was an architect! an awesome one!
this is super unexpected. suppper.

i didnt read any book. i still dont know the normal values for different lab results. it was just like any given day in college, like i was just taking a quiz or something. but God made a way! He worked! I believe during the test He was really there for me! everything is so surreal.


w
ith what happened in my life, I attest that there really is God.
i am not a VERY prayerful person.
i dont hear mass every Sunday. im always late for it most of the time.
i didnt go to st.jude nor to baclaran church because i have no fare money.
i am- as in i really am not in the right state of mind and body when i took the test. i wasnt ready.
but i have to say this. to give light to other who will be taking the test. (this is for you too, BEIH!)
i hope my experience will shed light on your darkest hours (REVIEW). because all it took for me was 4 years of excellent nursing education, a little pessimism, huge faith and prayers! AKO NAKAYA KO! KAYO PA KAYA!

but now i am really amazed with the wonders of the human brain! whoa!!!!! as major, big, super WHOA!!!!!

i have to say this (sory gwen ha magpipiling lang hahaha) pero it felt like i topped the NLE! i didnt even asked God to make me pass. i just said, let His will be done. and it is God's will really! this is too much! as i said, my lola's recovery was all im praying for. passing the boards was like cherry on top!!!!

eto hayaan niyo na ako magfeeling gumagawa ng thank you's sa aking album. b
ertdey ko naman eh! :p

and i would like to especially mention all my PAULINIAN friends. thank you for praying for me and my lola. YOU NAILED IT LADIES! super laki ng utang na loob ko sa inyong lahat!!!!! super!!!! lumevel up ang pagmamahal ko sa inyo ng bonggang bongga!!!! alam ko, dahil ito sa prayers niyo!!!!

JEREMIAH MENDOZA you said i am destined for greatness! i guess i am! it really made me feel i am superhuman! it boosted my confidence!

MARA MIRANDA you always enlighten me with your verses! they really were my stronghold!

ABI BERMUNDO you never let me feel down and you kept my head up a
ll the time. in God's time abi, in His time.

MACY CHAN girl you are great! You are my soulmate! i remember us in class saying "STACK KNOWLDGE LANG YAN! AT COMMON SENSE!" hahaha.

201 ROOMIES kayo ang naging saksi sa lahat!! LINTEK nagbunga ang mahabang pagtulog!!!! pero wag niyo ko gagayahin! magaral mabuti! bad influence si ate mela!

MRS RHODA REYES that phone call the night before the boards sealed it! super naiyak ako sa mga sinabi niyo at naramdaman ko na hindi ako nagiisa. na hindi ako kawawa!

TIMOTHY PIGUING isang pambihirang karanasan ito. ikaw ang naging sandalan ko sa mga oras na mahinang mahina ako. putang ina ikaw ang naghihila saken pataas! salamat talaga. hindi ako nagkamali ng lalaking minahal ko! sobrang proud ako sayo! at sa mga sinabi mo saken ngayong umaga, super natouch ako. "PARA SAKIN, IKAW ANG NO. 1!" putang ina beh k
inikilig ako!

PAMILYA KO para sa inyo itong lahat!!!!!! walang RN ngayon kung hindi dahil sa inyo. binabalik ko lang ang karapatdapat para sa mga taong kagaya niyo!

DYOS KO napakalaking regalo po nito! for the first time, hindi po ako ang pu
mili ng regalo ko. talaga pong nasurprise ako ng bonggang bongga!!!! ikaw ang winner PAPA GOD!


on my last day as a 20 year old, i was a noody.
now, at 21, as in right now, JULY 25, 2008
by the stroke of midnight



i am officially
MA. CAMELA CATAMBAY CHUAYAP, RN


to God be the glory!!!!

♥xoxo♥

♥ Akala Ko Eh :)

akala ko pagkatapos kong makapanumpa bilang isang ganap na NURSE eh ok na ang lahat. ang dami pa pala dapat isipin, gawin, at planuhin sa buhay. ang pinakamasaklap sa lahat -

HiNDi KO ALAM KUNG SAAN AKO MAGSiSiMULA

  • NCLEX - application papers, review centers, the SAUNDERS book
  • CGFNS - see above
  • IELTS - see above
  • SEMINARS - IV THERAPY TRAiNiNG, BLS, ACLS + MONEY FOR THOSE

akala ko talaga eh magsisimula ang magandang buhay ko after ng August 20. ngayon eh kahit ayaw kong isipin na kaylangan ko nang kumanta ng MAGSIMULA KA dahil nauubos ang sa pagtunganga sa harapan ng laptop at pag internet maghapon magdamag, my body cant move. isa pa, meron akong ginawa sa sarili ko kaya ayaw ko muna magpakita sa mga tao. hahaha. secret ko na yun basta after 3 weeks ang resulta kaya we will see (rissus[tama ba spelling ko pakikorek nga nurses] sardonicus ako ngaun hahaha)

anyways, baket ako nagtatagalog? say this line like Katherine sa Iisa Pa Lamang:

KASE, MABAET KA.

may kinuwento saken si mama and i cannot drop names pero narealize ko ngayon na dahil sa ginawa ko sa LOLA ko (not that i caused it to her!), na nagalaga and everything, naging favorite na ako ng mga lola, mga titas, mga titos at mga nanay :) hahaha. samantalang dati ako ay parang kaaway lamang nila, hane nga? feeling ko galit sila saken dati.

updates on my LOLA ENTAY (yah thats what we call her pero ako talaga tawag ko Inang):

  • she's walking already - and she walks alone, with no assistance but of course under the watchful eyes of the people around her kase nga risk for fall or injury diba?
  • she is hearing mass inside the church - unlike before she only hears mass (as in literally) in the house porch since the church is just in front of the house (hahaha)
  • she receives communion on her own - before the priest comes to her for communion after the mass
  • she urinates and defecates all by herself in the commode - no need for digital extraction (with gloves of course!) because she isnt constipated anymore, salamat sa dulcolax
  • she bathes by herself
  • she remembers things now - she tells me "ikaw tsaka mama mo ang nag-alaga sa akin"
  • naggagala na ang lola ko sa kapitbahay - like 5 houses away - at nakikichismis hahaha
  • she is now playing TONGiTS and BiNGO - again
  • she held a thanksgiving mass for my success in the board exams
  • nakikipagaway na siya sa mga tito ko (hahaha)


she forgot my birthday. pero i said:

"ok lang yun INANG, na stroke ka naman"

and we laughed our hearts out, like how we used to.

yes, akala ko we will lose her na.:)

i thought i will lose her agad.

but God is super good hane?

i know someday, OO, pero for extending my LOLA's stay,

PRAISE the LORD

(with arms na naka raise the roof)

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